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Name: Samantha
Country: United States
State: Georgia
Birthday: 11/16/1989
Gender: Female
Interests: Music (country::: Sara Evans, Lee Ann Womack, Alison Krauss, Terri Clark, MCC, Jessica Andrews, Emmylou Harris, Mindy Smith, Reba, Martina McBride, ect.) I also like B52's, the Bangles, Sam Philips, Carole King, Celine Dion.. all kinda random.. ha) computer(Internet, IM, photo programs), arts: ceramics, photography, sarcasm (b/c it really is an art form hehe) ect.. TV: Gilmore Girls, Grey's Anatomy, Brothers & Sisters, The Closer, Desp. Housewives, and Reba. My best friends:: Kiza and Cayla! Love yall MUCHO! <3 Alli, Felix, Alina, Morgan... love yall gals SO MUCH!! I couldn't ask for better friends!
Coffee flavored stuff is of monumental importance. <3
<3 Lorelai: Oh my God! I left the circus elephants in the car! And I didnt crack a window!
Expertise: Music, mainly country.. arts.. mainly ceramics and some photography.. and GG.. I know a good bit about GG..
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
7/4/2004
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| Update.. real quick (b/c for some freakish reason I dont have HW) ..
School... is crazy.. I hate the people in the Addmi. office. Bunch of retards. I wont be walking with the rest of the class.... kinda getting tired of having to say that.... people ask.. I have to explain.... same story.. nothing changes. However, it does make me happy that a few people are on my side in that it's dumb not to let me walk with the class even if I dont GET the deploma right that min.. (no one else will either.. IT'S A HOLDER!!! HA HA! lol..) And it makes me mad that when I say something at work about having to go to summer school ONE person (gerr) brings up that she just MIGHT be speaking at graduation. (She's 1.0somethinsomething from being 5th in the class) well, hotdamn. People will committ suiside before she finishes her speech. No one will be able to handel her crap. people hate her. Why does she have to even have the chanse to speak. people will sleep. people will die. people with kill each other to get out of there. Seriously. Dude, the guy she's competing against to get teh 5th place thing... HE BETTER BEAT HERE!!! Can't wait to hear that speech of hers.. I may not be walking, but Im gonna try to get the guts to at least go and see everyone else walk. Ill prob find a teacher to sit with since mom and dad wont want to go... cant blame them. Im a dissapointment enough w/o asking them to go to the graduation I WONT be in. Plus, summer school is high... and we've already (or THEY've) already paid for ALL the innvitations and stuff.... even after I told her "we wont need MANY AT ALL!!!" but no. she ordered a buttload and Ive screwed myself over to baddly we cant really use them. Im so sick of this.
So.. on to good things... work is good. I love it. Couldnt ask for a better group of people to work with. :) I love being able to talk about anything and everything and laugh at any and everything.. Rather large Man: um... we're gonna need a table... cause we have a baby and he'll need a booster." K: well, we can put a booster at a booth so you can take a seat now.." Man: no no... um. we'll need a table. for teh baby. He walks away and I look down and K has wrote out "dont blame your fatness on the baby." LOL!! I love it. And what I also love is that I get asked to hang out with everyone there. Older than me, same age as me.. everyone... and when I mention "oh we had so much fun ___ the other night" Miss 5th in class says, "you did what? they asked you to hang out with them? wow... Ive worked here for a year and they barely talk to me.." YEAH THATS CAUSE EVERYONE HATES YA!! woot.... man, Im mean, but I really want to throw her down a flight of stairs most of the time.
So yeah.... Lorre's my new best friend. lol no really, but I feel so close to her. Like she said, "best friends in another life" the universe has connected us with all our spazzy ways. Which makes me happy. :)
Last night Elise and I went b-day and mom's day shopping... then out to eat (we ran into my bro, his new gf, and her whole family cause they were having a bday party for her lil girl) and then to startbucks.. were soon was we walked in the door I was given a free White Choloate hot mocha... then I ordered a Mocha Frappichino and she ordered somethingy.. and he gave us both for $3 lol.. and then the guy liked us so he gave us free esspresso shots.... I did like 5 full and E did like 2 full ones... I was so sick when I woke up!! LOL I still cant taste coffee.. so good though. :) so umm anything else.... well, Im going to reinhardt... which is cool, I guess. at least I can keep my job and Lorre is super excited cause she's right there at teh college so we're going to hangout a bunch and what not. I cant wait!! :) Ill move out my sophmore year... Ive already discussed this with mom.... she's at terms with it. CAUSE SHE HAS TO BE!! lol. So yeah.... things are ok.. if only I could pull that other 1/2 a credit from somewhere!!
so yeah... Im gonna go make notecards for Lit and make myself some cearal or something.. I need sweets (coffee is wearing off a bit lol I need a jolt) | | |
| today was fantastic!
Utterly awesome!
I absolutly love my lit class.
Even when certain people are idiots.. can't help but ADORE the class.
got an awesome text from Rita today... I'm babysitting for her Friday.
Im pretty excited!
And then I got even farther along in my process of GOING TO LORI MCKEENA's show!!!!
scoooooore
Man, I am insanely excitied!
Only bad part of the day was when mom said there's no way I can go to the college I WANT to go to...
"b/c it's far away. You couldnt drive from there back home everyday."
UH! YEAH! Kinda my point!!!!
So yeah, I guess Im leaving it up to the local colleges and whatever to do whatever they do.
oh well.
aside from that...
the day was fantasic. :)
PS: My dearest Alli.. I miss you!!!!!
-We're watching/analyzing Edward Scisiorhands in Lit. I keep thinking I WISH ALLI WAS HERE!!! This is her heaven! :( like I said.. I miss you!!! | | |
| Im kinda just wishing something big would happen to wake me up cause I dont even feel human anymore. | | |
| Aint it weird how much changes? I mean... in like such a short period of time? It's not like I like work now or anything like that... but I'm not so down on myself (huge change there) b.c who knows? I might be able to fix what Ive messed up. Cayla's got some stuff to fix with school.... but it's just one class..... I think I have at least 2.... and I couldnt aford to fail anything to begin with.... I dont know how Im going to fix this... I think I could fix the math mess up... but if I didnt pass chem, I dont know what to do. I guess Ill start those extra classes before school. So Ill have to get to school a full hour earlier than I do now... for another class. sheesh. And if I failed 2 classes than I guess Ill do a full hour before and then a full hour after.... somehow I have to fix it.... or else I wont be graduating. ugh, my mind is getting crazy just thinking about it. so lets move on to christmas stuff....
cause I feel like telling someone what I got and since no one cares (I dont expect them to) Im listing it here (mainly so I wont forget... lol)
Awesome camera (mom got one too, but her's is a canon powershot... 8.0mps. and mine's a kodak 12.0mps... HECK YES!) and a case for it.
30Rock DVDs (season one... which I have been watching since 2 today.)
a really pretty dress I need an excuse to wear!
two pairs of jeans... a sweater.. a hoodie.. 2 shirts..
earrings, 2 necklaces,
UGA earrings!
UGA Blanket UGA jey chain thingy
Mats for my car
nightstand
alarm clock (mom and dad think they are funny... but I actaully really like it...)
gift cards to iTunes, Walmart, and Belk for some perfume.
ugh, and that's just from mom and dad.
Family got me other stuff.. but my fav is my UGA steering wheel cover :)
so yeah....... this has been a nice few days...
aside from having to work everyday leading up to today (including Christmas Eve) UGH
bug it's oki.... Im off for two days...
but I need to email or call Mrs K and Jack and find out when Jack will be back from NJ b/c I have to go 3 mornings in a row to let Georgia out...... oh and we start keeping the girls in a few days... but I go back to work day after tomorrow.... geez....
well.. shower here I come.....
then more 30Rock!!!
<3 | | |
| So yeah.. this weekend has just sucked all the life out of me.
not that there has ever really been much life in me anyway.
Sometimes, actually, most of the time, I can feel myself disolving into nothingness and I dont know how to stop this or if I even want it to stop.
Everything seems to bring me down... very little brings me up.
Those things that bring my up are few and far between
and Im sick of trying to find things to make me happy
knowing good and well it's not going to happen
at least for a very long while.
I have zero drive to accomplish anything
I'd like to leave everything for a couple of months and be around only the people I want to be around
doing nothing .. no obligations.. no one to tick us off... ect
Im sick of feeling like nothing
like the world around me is fading away and I have no control over it
because the sheer thought of having control over anything scares the crap out of me
weekend consisted of work on Friday... I was yelled at most of the day. I'm not spunky enough.. I dont smile enough... I dont speak to every individual that walks by.. UGH!!! I'm not a people person! And most of the time, when you speak to these people they EGNORE YOU or they say something like, "why are you talking to us??" YEAH! That's the people skills you want, right there! church today with jody and jamie and the kids and their play thingy that was cute.. then getting home to find a message on the machine that Im late for work NOT KNOWING I was supposed to go in BEFORE 5pm! ohhhhhh Noo.. I was suposed to be there at 12???? SERIOUSLY? UGH! so, I got there are 1:30, b/c it takes forever to get there..... got to work a whole 2 hours and 24 mins! Well, heck, that pays for a while pack of gum! UGH! I hate this place! They dont tell you ur hrs... they dont let you actually WORK a REALISTIC amount of hours at a time... they look at you like you're deformed... they yell at you for things YOU WERE TOLD TO DO! gaaaah. Ohh and last night I was yelled at for standing. Yeah, standing b/c I SHOULD BE DOING SOMETHING. Oki, I get that except I was just standing there after seating the ENTIRE RESTURANT BY MYSELF B/C EVERYONE ELSE WENT INTO HIDING! and I just just went around and asked everyone for a refill... and I had the menus organized and everything.. and then Jerk Face comes over and tells me I cant just stand there. (excus me... after running around like mad.. yeah I CAN STAND FOR A MIN!!!) but I was told to "ask people if they'd like a refill" I ALREADY DID! Or I should hookie (it's a sweeper thing) the floor... yeah, I would except that the hookie is gone and I think the person who has it is the one who has the job to keep the floor clean.. and he cant speak english so I'd go up to him and point to the hookie and then he'd what? go to work thinking I was giving him order? uuuugh, yeah I aint going through that.... I just wont. Id rather work in fast food than work with a bunch of idiots. I just really truly hate this place 100% oh, and they cut the $ we're supposed to get paid. Anyone hiring? cause seriously, I aint putting up with this very long. Today was just as bad "you are julia roberts! SMILE!" Yeah, if I cussed I know what words I would have used at that moment......... sigh. and you cant touch your face. the whole time you are there.. working.. you cant touch your face or your hair. it dosnt matter if there is a spider digging into your face... NO YOU CANT TOUCH IT. Yeah..... I touched my face a lot... b/c for one thing I think Im allergic to something in the place and my nose freaks out.... and another my glasses slide... so give me a break... either I move them up or I walk around blind? And so... tomorrow is Monday. My weekend wasnt a weekend... it was stressful and tiring and I got almost no sleep... I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE 2WEEK BREAK. and Tues I'm hanging with Mrs K.... at the very least Ill have one good day. | | |
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